I never thought I’d be here again,
Hurting like I am.
In the same way that I was once before.
No one can relate,
I guess I m the only one that’s walked this path before.
Never thought history would repeat itself,
Even when I did do things totally different then before.
I did all this shit years before.
Didn’t think I’d catch more intense feelings
Didn’t think I could get hurt once more.
Didn’t think I would again end up in last.
Last place to something I thought would be fresh and new.
Last to find out the truth.
It’s funny like that because I thought this was someone I kindda sorta knew.
Someone I was lead to believe was on the same page as me.
My thoughts where mislead,
For nothing now seems to be.
So here I am right back at square one.
Hurting like hell,
feeling absolutely like a damn fool,
Wanting something in which I can’t have.
Something I can’t change,
something that I assume is not ment to be.
Never thought I’d be here again,
But this is my life,
Shit always happens to me.
I feel it all to often, the Hurt and the grief.
But I don’t show it,
I just wear a smile on my face,
pretend everythig is ok,
gotta stay with straight face.
I can see now I start to care for all the wrong reasons,
For all the wrong people.
It’s never the other way around.
But in life I see you have to fall,
In order to get back up without a scratch or a frown.
I did a lot of things different this time.
Made sacrifices I’ve never made before.
I opened up to something new,
Hoping that there would be and open door.
I looked forward to growing as a person outside & in.
I changed for something and someone, just so I could let them in.
I feel like a fool, why I don’t know.
Emotions running up, down, around And now possibly out the front door.
I can’t change the past of anyone but I can make due with my future fore sure.
In all hopes that one day happiness will reign over our future.
But I guess that’s wishful thinking,
Because no one thinks quite like me.
We all have our time to outgrow the past and make peace with whatever may be.
But that can only be on our own terms & I know this because I’ve handled mines, I can feel the change in Tee!
Whatever happens i’ll make do and continue on with bettering me.
Not everything in life is planned,
Not everything in life is good,
But everything that happens in life,
It’s for a reason.
We all make mistakes,
We all aren’t perfect,
We’re humans and that’s it.
We don’t have the strength like superman or superwomen,
No one can ever be that strong,
But we can be strong enough to get through anything.
With hopes and dreams,
With family and friends,
Even at the darkest moments in life.
Support, respect, compassion, and love from all
it can make everything bad turn so small,
Letting the good stand so tall.
We can forgive and forget,
But we can’t regret anything that’s done.
In life we have to live it like it’s our only one.
Treat it so precious,
Something like a jewel.
Take advantage of every lesson in life,
Even if it’s something bad, good, or new,
Live it like it’s the last days without any worries,
Tell me that’s what you’ll do!
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It’s a lot I could say about a lot of people in my past life and my present,But then again what good would that do. Family, Friends, or Foe, all I can say is that with each individual experience we live we learn, we reroute our expectations when dealing with certain individuals, we learn how to keep people at a distance and coexist with even the most immature and ignorant people on the planet, but hey that’s life. We all learn a lot of things about people you thought you knew but really didn’t. We may say no He or she changed, he did this, they’re fake, she is this & they did that, when in all reality it’s just a growth that you may have yet to experience, & that’s just how the cookie crumbles. We may not agree with everything others do, or we may even grown out of liking some of the things we use to do, but in the end it’s a choice only you have to make to stick around or learn and grow from each interaction you come across.
Wondering what’s next.
I know in life you can never really know.
But you can try to prepare,
Sometimes even share.
My thoughts, my plans, my life,
My stress, my love.
If giving I hope when it’s receive,
It will be with all the above.
Flaws & all.
I was taught to take things in stride.
But now I feel as though,
I m just a long for the free ride.
Am I happy; at times,
in certain moments in time,
But I’ve noticed it’s seem to be
A temporary satisfaction.
It’s Something so repetitive for me.
Feeling as though we’re not on the same page.
& with nothing promised
I feel that I can recive that from anyone
Or anywhere.
Then I wonder what’s there to offer.
What’s there to gain,
Whats the purpose,
What’s the plan,
What intentions are in order,
What are your motives,
And are you willing to share.
Is sacrifice in your vocabulary,
or do you not care.
I don’t know these answers and I may not ever fully know.
I would prefer your outlook, but that would be up to you to share.
All I know is that time is flying by,
& in my mind it’s telling me that the time is being wasted
Someone once told me time waits for no one.
And then I wondered can that feeling be changed,
Who’s to say, but that’s the verdict i’ve settled with as of today.